January 2010
6 posts
Daylight speaks to me
No amount of people telling me it was the right thing makes me feel better.
I feel horrible. I wasn’t able to give this amazing guy what he needs. He is the sweetest.. most caring….mature guy I had met in a very long time.
But Im not ready for what he is. He was in love the day after we met, where as Im still skeptical of guys and relationships in general. More than skeptical.
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When I can’t see him
He’s perfect.
You know what’s horrible.
When you realize all your worst fears about something are true.
I didn’t know for sure I couldn’t feel. It’s like someone turned off my emotions like a light switch. Now I stay in the dark to protect myself… It definitely seems logical to me which I guess is the problem.
But I can’t find the switch now that I want the light back :(
You would think someone telling you how great you are for an hour would be a good thing, why do I kinda not wanna hear it?
I’ll tell him to cool it a bit…